When my father died in 2020, just as COVID began, I finally slowed down enough to face what I’d been carrying. I began classical therapy — systemic work, inner parts work, and daily meditation (a practice I’ve kept for years).
I began to see the patterns: in my relationships, in my work, in the way I’d place everyone else’s needs before my own. I’d always chosen the caretaker role, even when it cost me my joy. Slowly, I started learning boundaries, self-respect, and self-worth.
I began replacing the voice of judgment in my head with one of compassion. I learned to sit with myself in my pain and not turn away.
When I moved to Israel in 2023, something in me softened. I found myself in a conscious community — family constellations, cacao ceremonies, ecstatic dances, guided journeys.
At first, I came with curiosity. Then I came with trust. I let spirituality — the very thing I had kept at arm’s length for so long — take root in my life again.
Through many different modalities, I began to heal the threads of my mother wound and father wound. My world expanded.
I’m traveling through Portugal in my van, giving myself the time and space to rest, to listen, and to let what’s next reveal itself. I practice being over doing. Slowness over speed. Softness over hardness.
I’m no longer in a rush to arrive anywhere. I know the road is part of it. I know I am guided and I trust. Magic is all around us and I am so grateful to experience it everyday.
I feel full. free.
I’ve learned to take the deep space-holding skills I once used in unhealthy, self-abandoning ways — and offer them now in a healthy, boundaried way, as a practitioner. I support and guide others, while I continue to prioritize my own healing.
This is what soulpreneurship means to me: living and working in alignment with my heart and intuition, letting life grow from presence instead of urgency, and knowing that my light shines brightest when it comes from a place of wholeness.
From Wounded Healer to Soulpreneur
I didn’t set out to become a healer.
The truth is, I’ve been on a healing journey for as long as I can remember — I just didn’t have the words for it.
It began in a small German village, in a home that was loving but unpredictable. At 13, my mother — warm, spiritual, and free-spirited — had her first psychotic episode. Overnight, I became the mother, the caretaker. I learned to sense when the storms were coming, to make hard decisions, to call for help in the middle of the night.
A few years later, my stepmother passed away from cancer, and my father spiraled into alcoholism. By 20, I was studying International Business & Management by day and running his failing nightclub by night, managing a team twice my age, navigating debts and legal chaos I hadn’t created.
I learned that my needs do not have space and hold huge amounts of responsibilities. I became an expert at holding space for others in crisis. I became an independent strong hight functioning successful woman, who I loved to be for a long time.
What I didn’t know back then was that I was also abandoning myself.
At the end of 2024, I was expelled from Israel for visa overuse. My heart broke. I landed in Thailand, unsure of what came next.
There, I started working with Hila, a shamanic energy healer who became my mentor. We cut cords, journeyed to past lives, released old contracts, and shifted patterns I’d carried for decades. She nudged me into advanced shamanism training, where I learned to work with energy in ways that felt both deeply true and sometimes too scary and overwhelming.
And then — burnout. A complete collapse of the “high-achieving, always-on” masculine energy I’d been running on for years. Everything in me that had been built around doing, pushing, achieving… dissolved.
In its place, there was space. Space for the feminine.
For softness. For rest. For listening. For simply being.
From the outside, it looked like I’d lost my way. From the inside, I knew I had finally found access to a new version of myself that is more whole, more balanced, more connected.
I trained in Reiki Level 1, Level 2 in Thailand at Orion Healing Center and the Reiki Master in Bali, blending Reiki with shamanic tools into an intuitive form of energy medicine.